last week was really "one hell of a week"... since the sem was about to end, all of us became busy with all our paper works and not to mention, reviewing for the mind-blowing exams.. i wasn't able to eat properly because i was thinking about all the paper works to be done and at the same time nervous about the results of our examination.. i didn't know what activity should be prioritized first at that time.. i wanted to review (and i mean REVIEW) for the exams because i knew that it would be really hard but i also need to finish the paper works or else my grades would be incomplete.. so i finished all the paper works first then i reviewed for the exams.. i ad mit that i wasn't able to study really hard, because i became tired and exhausted after coming from school then doing all the necessary things to be done.. this made me really scared about the results of my exams.. especially our comprehensive exam.. it was really HARD! i fact, while taking the exam, i wished for nothing but to "just"  pass it.. i didn't even hope for a high grade.. i just wanted to pass it..  unfortunately, only 2 students (out of 41 students from our class) passed the comprehensive exam.. this made me really depressed.. i really thought that i would be kicked out from my school because i might get a failing grade because i wasn't able to make a good performance.. so what i did was prayed really hard to GOD.. i asked for guidance.. i also asked him to give me the strength for me to accept wholeheartedly if i would be obliged to transfer to another school.. at that time, i didn't want to expect that i would pass since i myself know that i wasn't able to study hard.. and i believe that God is just there to help.. but if you wouldn't do anything for yourself, how can God help you right? this is the reason why i didn't want to ask God for Him to do something to let me pass the exam because i know that i didn't do my best and that it would be too much to ask Him for that..  but God really works in unexpected ways.. all of us passed! we are now all promoted for the next sem.. its just sad that some of my friends from other sections wasn't able to make it and that they are obliged to transfer..  to show how grateful i am to God because he let me pass this sem, i promised that i would really study harder this coming sem and manage my time so that i would be able to review properly for my exams.. this sem made me realize that my course really needs perseverance.. and if you're not that industrious enough to study then you might fail.. my life of living it easily is almost through.. i have to be serious with this or else i'll go nowhere..

i don't want to waste the chance that God has given me.. i'll make use of this chance wisely and try not to break my promise.. for now, i just want to THANK GOD for everything.. He is so good.. and i love Him so much!! 

later..

dyslexias slugz at nikka's wedding.. we're not complete here..

these are my gorgeous friends.. let me introduce them first.. hehe.. start from the top okay? so that's raffy, nikka, jhay, janela, cathy, joanne then me, alex, tian and clay.. actually, we're not complete in that picture.. the first and last time that we were complete and had our picture taken was last december 2003 after our highschool christmas party..  

the group is composed of 17 pretty girls.. (sorry, i really have to emphasize the word "pretty" hehe) GLADYS, CARLA, CATHY, JOANNE, JHAY, NELA, CZAREE, CLAY, RAFFY, ALEX, NIKKA, SHANE, JONA, DAWN, BJ, TIAN and ALET..  we didn't expect that we could be this big.. we became "dyslexias slugz" when we were in third year high.. it was a long story.. but i'd tell it though.. hehe.. i'll really try my best not to confuse all of you who are going to read this okay? hehe.. we're originally composed of 3 groups.. gladys-carla-cathy-alex-nikka-shane-jona... then joanne-jhay-czaree-clay-nela.. then bj-tian-alet.. joanne asked us (latter) if she could go with the first group since they are her long time friends.. she said that the first group would split up and that they'll just be 4 or 5 of them in the group.. for us, it was alright.. but she also said that we may join them.. the four of us (jhay, clay, nela and me) thought that that would be fun, so we said yes! the more the merrier right? hehe.. but later on, we just realized that the splitting-up issue won't really push through! i think there were just 1 or 2 girls from their group who decided to get out of the picture.. but it's okay.. being with them (the first group) is really fun! and i mean FUN.. then bj, tian, and alet also joined the group.. i can't exactly remember when but they also added color to the group.. it didn't take long and we decided to name our group.. so we grabbed a dictionary, a pen and a paper and got 3 different out-of-this-world names.. we let everyone in the group read the names and vote on what name they want.. voting?? hehe.. and so majority won and DYSLEXIAS SLUGZ was our chosen name.. at that time, we don't care about the meaning of our group name and we didn't bother to look for it's meaning.. and until now we still don't know what it means.. hehe.. we also chose our "day".. we decided that it would be SEPTEMBER 18.. so SEPTEMBER 18, 2002 was our day.. (yea, we just celebrated our 4th anniversary last september 18 .. after a year, raffy and dawn started to join us also.. a big incident happened that time.. for me, it was a blessing in disguise.. though it caused us to be mad at girl in our school ('coz she made stories 'bout some members of our group inspite of the good treatment that we gave her..) still, we were able to gain 2 more friends.. and that's raffy and dawn.. i must say i never imagined that i would be able to have friends like DYSLEXIAS SLUGZ.. they're the kind of people whom at first, i didn't think that i'd get close with..  but they proved me wrong.. as we spend each day of our high school together, i realized that they are the people who could help you and won't leave you no matter what happens.. they can make you laugh, they're the people whom you can play cards with during recess and lunch time, eat like there's no tomorrow, run from terror teachers and nuns.. copy homeworks and quizzes..  they'll  join you when you want to cry, help you face your problems.. and give you the best pieces of advice..  some people think that because we are a big group, we're also bullies.. but that is totally wrong.. we're so friendly and we're all peace makers.. haha.. we don't really care if you're part of SLUGZ, as long as you're a true person, then you can always join us.. we're a friend to everyone! *sigh* too much 'bout highschool.. if i would be telling here all my insights of how great it is to be part of SLUGZ, then i might not be finished until tomorrow.. hehe..

but as what the saying goes.. "some good things don't last".. (is that right? hehe) but i definitely agree with this.. when we graduated high school, all the eating, singing, dancing,  playing, teasing (etc.) ended.. in short, no more everyday fun..  i really miss these girls so much.. yes, we may see each other once in a while, but since our high school grad day, we were never complete when we plan to get together.. someone would always be missing.. it's just too bad that our schedules won't allow us to be complete even for just a day.. but it's okay.. i know, we're still DYSLEXIAS SLUGZ.. and that will be forever.. right guys? miss you all so much.. love you all..

did i mention that we also love the comfort room? hehe.. this pic was taken inside the "room"..

shocked? cathy, nela, shane, clay, dawn, me, joanne.. hehe..

our wackiest shot..

thank's for visiting.. later..  

i woke up early today 'coz i have my r.l.e. class at 8am.. i started moving and fixing myself at around 6am.. thinking that it was still early, i did not hurry myself up..  i finished fixing myself at around 7:30 and at that time, i realized that i should be nervous and start to hurry up 'coz if i get late, i'd be forced to have a make up duty.. fortunately, i came just in time, without fixing my hair and no make up.. just imagine what a mess i was this morning.. then we waited for our clinical instructor for 2 hours i think.. and she didn't show up.. we just found out that she really won't come to school today so we  had to join other groups for our orientation for our next duty.. then we were given paper works.. we really  had no ideas of how to deal with those paper works since no one could guide us because our instructor didn't come.. so we just bummed around 'til 4pm.. it was fun though 'coz my groupmates and i were just entertaining ourselves by sharing different funny (and corny) stories.. and then when we were finally about to go home, after 8 hours of boredom, we went to our "sub-instructor" and took our non-sense work.. (remember we just laughed the whole day and we even slept in the library.. haha)

then when i got home, i don't know, i just felt so tired.. then a friend of mine called..  i didn't answer it at first since i wasn't feeling well.. but when he called up again, i don't know what happened but i answered his call.. (here: i don't talk to anybody when i don't feel good and i don't really answer calls as well) then when we were talking, i don't know what came up to me but i just found myself treating him not so good.. it really made me guilty.. he said that i hurt his feelings 'coz of what i said.. really stupid thing to do.. this is the reason why i just keep quiet when i'm tired or when i'm not feeling good.. i tend to be irritable.. and be rude to other people.. yea, i know its bad.. that's why i just keep quiet.. and another thing, because of my attitude, he got pissed off and threw his phone.. what happened? the LCD of his phone broke.. now, he can't clearly read text messages in his phone.. feeling really guilty 'coz of what happened, i offered that i shall be the one to have it fixed in a mobile phone shop, but he said that he won't allow that to happen.. at the end of our conversation, i said sorry.. i just don't know how to apologize and make up for my bad attitude.. he said it's okay and that he's not mad.. but it just kills me when i get to hurt other's feelings..   

later..

i dont know if i'm going to make sense with this.. i don't wanna be mushy or anyting..  i just want to share my insights bout waiting for someone.. (eww..) hehe..

my friend and i were texting this morning and she shared to me bout her latest date with her suitor.. she said that he (her suitor) introduced her to his mother and to his  brother.. my friend was really flattered.. but she admitted one thing.. SHE STILL DOESN'T FEEL THE "SPARK" WITH HIM.. she thinks that maybe it was because, subconsciously, she compares her new suitor with her ex.. (by the way, they broke up 2 months ago).. though it was her ex's fault, she admits that she still love him.. actually, i saw this friend of mine cry over that guy.. she really got hurt.. but now, she is starting to move on.. according to  her, her new suitor brought her smile back.. i can see that she's happy.. but she is hesitating bout giving herself a chance of falling with this guy.. she's worried bout what other people might think since she just got in a relationship.. i gave her pieces of advice.. i don't know if she really agreed with what i said.. but for me, other people can think of whatever they want.. but what would make her happy is important.. two words... WHO CARES? these people can't make her smile when she's alone and crying right? but her suitor can.. and obviously, she likes him.. im happy for my friend.. at least she did not wait for that long to be happy again.. yes, her feeling for her ex-boyfriend is still there.. a year and a half of being together can't just be thrown into trash.. but its just a proof that some good things don't really last.. her ex caused her too much pain.. and for me waiting for him to be back to his "old self" is just a waste of time.. she keeps on thinking and waiting for that time to come but the result? nothing.. as in no change happened.. he just bacame numb and kept on hurting her.. so i told her that that's enough.. it's bout time for her to be happy.. and fortunately, this new guy came.. just in time..

just a couple of minutes ago, another friend of mine shared bout his lovelife.. yea, a guy friend of mine.. what's happening to these people? they're all in love! haha.. but his problem is, he's just inlove with the thought of being inlove! -- don't get confused.. its because this guy doesn't have a girlfriend and he's not even courting someone.. but he's tired of waiting for that girl to come.. he wants to have a girlfriend.. he wants to love and be loved..   he thinks that he's just getting older and older but still single.. (but hey, he's just 22 years old.. is that too old? 'coz for me it's not) so i told him that first, he's not that old.. and it's okay for him to be single.. it's still normal right? hehe..  a lot of people out there are also single.. and waiting.. it's just a matter of patience.. we (yea, im also single.. haha..) don't have to be pressured with the people around us.. we should take time in choosing the person worth our love.. and when that person comes, we should take care of him/her and cherish every moment that we share together.. that's it.. thanks for taking time to read this.. i hope i made sense.. hehe..

later..

im back!! haha.. because of Milenyo - yea, the typhoon, i was not able to do anything.. as in nothing at all.. the whole Metro Manila experienced living in the dark! For some (like us), it only took 24 hours to have the electricity back. But unfortunately, as of this moment, some still don't have electricity..  But I'm pretty sure that they'll be having their electirc power back sooner or later.. After the typhoon, Metro Manila was like a warzone.. as in almost all the trees fell and glasswindows from different buildings broke! (including glasswindows of my school!!) I guess Milenyo is God's way of teaching us that we should all be prepared of anything that may happen.. BECAUSE GOD CAN TAKE AWAY ANYTHING FROM US IN JUST A SECOND.. Life isn't always like having fun..

Speaking of having fun, because i was really pissed off with someone yesterday, i decided to have fun last night (saturday night).. ironinc huh? a while ago i was just telling that we shouldn't have fun all the time but there, i just said that i had fun last night.. haha.. But actually, i wouldn't really go out last night, but because of that #/!?@+, i decided to go out and have fun instead.. My cousin Rachelle, invited me to go out with them, so i did.. and i enjoyed, really! Even if at first, we really experienced the scariest night of our lives (exaggerated!). haha.. It was because we went to the house of their friend.. It was really a long drive.. and when we got there, their friend wasn't home yet.. and to make everything "exciting", the street where their friend lives in still doesn't have their electric power.. It was really dark! and i mean DARK! I was really scared! That moment, I just wished that someone could pick us up.. But I can't use my phone to call my friends or to call someone 'coz my phone's battery might get empty.. so the best and the only thing for me to do that time was wait and pray..  Fortunately, nothing bad happened.. After waiting in the dark, finally, their friend came.. And we got to have fun! The rest of the night is history.. haha! I'll just post it some other time.. Can't get enough of me huh? hehe.. just kidding...  gotta go.. i need to get some sleep.. Thanks for visiting!

later..

happy birthday czaree,, happy birthday czaree.. happy birthday, happy birthday.. happy birthday czaree! haha.. my friends sang this song today for so many times! I'm so happy today.. I didn't expect that I would enjoy this day since it started as an ordinary day..

So I woke up early today coz my class starts at 7am.. when i checked my phone, i was surprised because i have received so many birthday messages from my friends.. then I just realized that today really is my day (yes!)..  Then someone called me up to greet me.. Then we talked for a while.. Then later on, he kept on asking bout my blog address.. but i didn't want to give it because i was shy..(coz of some reasons) haha.. but because i was running late for my first class, i gave up and gave the address.. so i finished fixing myself up at around 7 am.. (yes, i was late.. - 45 mins late) good thing our professor didn't check the attendance.. when i entered our room, everybody was greeting me and smiling at me.. and that made me really happy.. it just feels great when a lot of people greet you right?.. We did nothing but eat during our first break time.. We were waiting for Gela to show up (because she didn't attend our first class) but she didn't come.. then after that, we went back to school for our second class... It was kinda boring but still we were able to enjoy it because my friends and I kept on talking with each other and we kept on taking pictures of ourselves..haha.. (yea, while inside the room.. bully??!) then our second break.. we met gela at the lobby and the four of us (jules, kat, gela, me) went to MOA.. jules and gela went to Netopia and surf some things on the net.. kat and i waited for them then after that we went to Chocolat and ate cakes! (wow! yum yum!) Too bad gela was not with us because she was still in Netopia (busy girl huh?) We just met gela at Mcdo because we were running late for our theo class.. while waiting for her, my mom texted me and greeted me.. coz of that, my day was almost complete.. it was really a sweet message from my mom.. (thanks ma!) i miss her so much..  Then our theo class.. we just watched a film.. it was boring but we can't live earlier becaue we might get dropped! (bingo! haha) it just shows that we really are good students.. haha.. it was a long movie.. really boring.. Then at last the movie got to its end!  We can now go to my house and eat! Before leaving the school, my classmates greeted me.. i was really happy though i was not really feeling well.. by the way, i have flu today.. nice? hehe.. but still i enjoyed this day.. thanks to my family and friends.. My family prepared food for my friends! The food was really great! My father cooked yakisoba, tempura, and pork asado.. my friends really loved it! They even planned to take some home.. hehe.. i was surprised because some of our relatives and family friends came.. it was like a real party! i was able to receive 3 cakes tonight.. one from my friends, and the other two were from our family friends..  so happy!! (haha! speechless) Im tired but im really overwhelmed.. because of the effort that my family and my friends exerted.. Thanks papa! Thanks kuya tj.. thanks everyone! You all made this day very special.. I'll never forget this! I'm just so happy right now and I can't find the right words that would explain how i feel.. I never thought that this day would be this special despite of the fact that we face some problems right now.. still, we were able to celebrate my birthday.. Im so happy.. Happy Birthday to me!

one of the cakes the i have received tonight was somewhat similar to this.. sorry, i was not able to take a picture of it. hehe..

Finally, I was convinced by my cousin barry to make a blog.. so here it is..  

Today is Sunday,  September 24.. Yea, day before my birthday.. God! I'm turning 19 tomorrow.. but nothing really is new.. My day was like my usual Sunday.. I woke up early because  we'll be attending the second service at day by day christian ministries.. Then I took a bath and woke my cousin Barry up.. we both fixed up.. When we were about to go, Barry and I were surprised because my sister Cathy was able to wake up early to join and attend the service with us... (she doesn't usually wake up early so that was the reason why we were kind of surprised!) When we got there, we waited for like an hour I think, because my father, Cesar, attended his last Sunday School Lesson.. (nice!) Next week, I think we'll all be attending the Basic Growth Lessons at the Sunday School.. Something weird happened while the service was going on.. My favorite songs were sung by the choir! I've been waiting for those songs to be sung by them for like 4 months.. and they sang it this morning! Then while singing, I just found my tears falling.. (awwe..) I was really touched by the songs.. I was trying to control it because I didn't want my father to notice that I was crying.. Fortunately, he didn't know that I cried.. But my cousin and my sister were teasing me because they saw me crying.. haha.. (Actually, I seldom cry.. and these are just some of the reasons why I cry sometimes) Then I got over it in just a little while.. We listened to the preaching but we were not able to finish the whole service because because my father suddenly felt bad.. He was feeling dizzy so we decided to go home.. When we got home, he was able to rest and eventually felt better.. (Thank God!) Then while he was resting, Cathy, Barry and I decided to have lunch.. We were talking bout different stories when Kuya TJ called me from the gate of our house.. When I got out, there was a delivery for me! My pre birthday gift from Chester! It was a bouquet of tulips.. a big one.. and it was so beautiful.. i really loved it! Then later on, everyone in the house was smiling and teasing me because of the bouquet.. they all found it beautiful as well.. i was really surprised because i never imagined that i would be able to receive such kind of gift for my 19th birthday because i don't have a boyfriend right now.. I'm so happy.. Happy even if at first i had a hard time letting my father know that someone gave me flowers.. but when i showed it to him and told him bout it, he just asked who gave it then just kept queit.. (a better reaction than what i expected..hehe) Thanks for the flowers ches..

 I hope tomorrow would also be a happy day for me..

Bouquet of Tulips from Archester..

later..